That is my question.
Why would anyone want to read what I write? I’m not a writer.
At times I love the sound of my own voice yet I am all too aware that not everyone else does.
Are my thoughts, my opinions, my dreams, and my life interesting enough for anyone to want to spend an odd minute hearing about them? I doubt it! I would consider myself to be a pretty average woman of 37 who just happens to be a separated, working mum embarking on a brand new stage of life.
MOI!
I had a pretty lucky life until 2-3 years ago….you know the type of woman you secretly hate and wish that one day everything falls down around them?! Well whoever did that wishing for me, should have put their energies into buying a lottery ticket, they’d be a millionaire by now!
I got the exams, the university, the jobs, the bloke, then the husband, the house, the holidays, the friends, (dare I even say the long legs and looks?) and at the ‘right’ time even the beautiful child! I was part of a golden couple – the guaranteed-to-be-together-in-their-90s couple, with a man who loved and cherished me.
Until - as boy band Blue once crooned – ‘ain’t it funny, how life can change, can flip 180 in a matter of days’
And so it did.
Now, I do hope to fill you in on how I got here as time goes on and I get the hang of this blogging malarkey. But no, my lovely husband did not up and leave me in the lurch Neverthless I did end up in a VERY dark place. It’s taken me a long time to climb out the black pit of my mind and find myself back in a pretty warm, sunny and happy place again.
That’s not to say that I’m not left with the odd scar or seven from the last couple of years, and I’m sure you’ll hear about a few of those as my journey moves forward!
My aim now is to enjoy my life, my daughter, my friends and family, my opportunities and possibilities; everything and everyone to the max. Because I’ve wasted far too much time already and life is just too damn short.
I am also looking for a passionate love (or two) along the way but I’m discovering that blokes are my Achilles heel! Whilst I want to be a fully independent and happy individual, those men have the ultimate power to make me…..or break me!
I never dated until I was 37….how naïve I was…it’s a weird, scary, exciting world out there…..eeek!
I hope you will enjoy coming on this journey with me.
Perhaps you are in a similar situation and will laugh, cry or at least understand what I’m going through. Or perhaps you are nothing like me, think I’m a complete nutter nutcase or, even occasionally, a brave soul….but thank God you don’t have to go though what I do (go and give your beloved a big kiss right now)! Either way, feel free to comment on any posts and add your own stories.
I wouldn’t have got through the last couple of years without sharing. I’m honest, direct and have been known to be a bit too straight talking/occasionally blunt! Oops!
Until the next time xxx
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