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Hey everyone!

As you can tell, this blog is a work in progress!

It's going to take a while - what with work, daughter, having fun, laughing, family, dating, sharing friends' lives, real life stuff, dreaming and the very occasional bit of crying - but nevertheless this is still on my never ending list of things to do.

Essentially, all the things that provide me with the stories to tell you about, keep taking over my life and the time I have to tell you about them!

So bear with me....I will be back with the goss! :-) xx

Am I a dating dunce?

Do you know if you’d have asked me a year ago if I’d still be single today I think that I might just have scoffed and said, maybe even in a slightly mocking tone, ‘I don’t think so!’

You see I thought I was a bit of catch, a catch with a bit of visible and not-so-visible baggage, but a fine catch nonetheless! (See! I have lots of confidence in myself at times!)

So where the hell have I gone wrong when it comes to meeting a nice bloke?

I’m pleasing to the eye, I love to laugh, I’m not (officially) mentally unstable, I’m laid back, open minded, independent and confident. I attract attention but not a boyfriend.

Now whilst I’m a late arrival to the dating game, I’ve watched enough episodes of Sex and the City (while happily living in my smug married cocoon) to know that however-exciting-dating-can-be-when-it’s-going-well it can be pretty shitty the rest of the time.

How do you meet them? Once you do how do you attract them? And then how the blummin hell do you keep their attention / interest / affection for longer than it takes a goldfish to swim round its bowl?

Now if you’ve stumbled upon my blog by some dodgy quirk of Google in search of dating support……hmmmmm back up, back up now! OR hang around, I’m sure I can show you that you are not alone, or that ‘things don’t look too bad, actually, now you come to mention it, I’m fine!’

I happen to have also been searching blogs for moral support and my favourite so far is Dating is Weird (other bloggers please don’t be offended, there’s a lot of us out there, I’m yet to find you all, but feel free to get in touch and let me know about you. Mwah xx) A great collection of dating stories that we can all relate to at some point in our lives. Hell yeah, I hear ya!

(Ooops! Now I’ve started talking about dating I’ve realised I have far too much to say. This post is going to require sequels.)

Anyway, I digress, as ever.

Dating, and the people you meet doing it, can be magical, awesome, exciting, exhilarating, liberating, life changing, amazing, blah, blah, blah! However it can also be confidence knocking, soul destroying, hurtful, shocking, confusing, boring, tedious and just plain weird.

I never knew it would be like this.

There’s got to be a better way? Suggestions on a postcard asap!

To be continued…… xxx

To blog or not to blog?

That is my question.

Why would anyone want to read what I write? I’m not a writer.

At times I love the sound of my own voice yet I am all too aware that not everyone else does.

Are my thoughts, my opinions, my dreams, and my life interesting enough for anyone to want to spend an odd minute hearing about them? I doubt it! I would consider myself to be a pretty average woman of 37 who just happens to be a separated, working mum embarking on a brand new stage of life.

MOI!

I had a pretty lucky life until 2-3 years ago….you know the type of woman you secretly hate and wish that one day everything falls down around them?! Well whoever did that wishing for me, should have put their energies into buying a lottery ticket, they’d be a millionaire by now!

I got the exams, the university, the jobs, the bloke, then the husband, the house, the holidays, the friends, (dare I even say the long legs and looks?) and at the ‘right’ time even the beautiful child! I was part of a golden couple – the guaranteed-to-be-together-in-their-90s couple, with a man who loved and cherished me.

Until - as boy band Blue once crooned – ‘ain’t it funny, how life can change, can flip 180 in a matter of days’

And so it did.

Now, I do hope to fill you in on how I got here as time goes on and I get the hang of this blogging malarkey. But no, my lovely husband did not up and leave me in the lurch Neverthless I did end up in a VERY dark place. It’s taken me a long time to climb out the black pit of my mind and find myself back in a pretty warm, sunny and happy place again.

That’s not to say that I’m not left with the odd scar or seven from the last couple of years, and I’m sure you’ll hear about a few of those as my journey moves forward!

My aim now is to enjoy my life, my daughter, my friends and family, my opportunities and possibilities; everything and everyone to the max. Because I’ve wasted far too much time already and life is just too damn short.

I am also looking for a passionate love (or two) along the way but I’m discovering that blokes are my Achilles heel! Whilst I want to be a fully independent and happy individual, those men have the ultimate power to make me…..or break me!

I never dated until I was 37….how naïve I was…it’s a weird, scary, exciting world out there…..eeek!

I hope you will enjoy coming on this journey with me.

Perhaps you are in a similar situation and will laugh, cry or at least understand what I’m going through. Or perhaps you are nothing like me, think I’m a complete nutter nutcase or, even occasionally, a brave soul….but thank God you don’t have to go though what I do (go and give your beloved a big kiss right now)! Either way, feel free to comment on any posts and add your own stories.

I wouldn’t have got through the last couple of years without sharing. I’m honest, direct and have been known to be a bit too straight talking/occasionally blunt! Oops!

Until the next time xxx